Breathwave ~ Diving in to Breath

Andrew Lee • March 7, 2022

Breathwave ~ the wave of the future for breathwork

Words cannot describe the 5-day Breathwave retreat I just attended...


My loyal readers know that I have lived a pretty unique life, and had some incredible adventures and ecstatic experiences. This retreat was probably the most unbelievable and transformational experience of my life.


What is Breathwave?


Breathwave is a modality under the umbrella of breathwork (or conscious-connected-breathwork), which is fast becoming popular, mainly due to Wim Hof and the breathing method he developed before plunging in cold water. However, breathwork has been around since the 60's, where it was brought into western consciousness mainly by renowned LSD researcher Stanislav Grof, who developed "holotropic breathwork." Many forms of breathwork have since branched off and emerged.


I am no expert in breathwork, so please take these words with a grain of salt and look it up for yourself: from my experience breathwork is a practice used to access non-ordinary states of consciousness, such as trance or ecstasy. In this state deep seated feelings can arise. These feelings can be blissful; they can be uncomfortable, or worse, extremely painful. Painful sensations are often a reflection of past traumas surfacing, which present an opportunity to resolve and heal them.


Breathwave is one of the gentlest forms of breathwork. It can be more appealing for those intimidated by the intensity of Wim Hof and holotropic breathwork. While it obviously requires some level of engagement beyond normal breathing, it really doesn't ask much of you. The point is to let go and not try so hard.


It's okay if up to this point you don't believe me. You just have to try it. I didn't believe it either until I did: it really is possible to access powerful  states using just the breath. Your breath is much more powerful than you think!


The Retreat


This 5-day retreat was attended by myself plus 12 others at a beautiful retreat centre on the west coast of Canada, run by dear friends of dear friends of mine. The facilitator as well as the chef, are also dear friends of these same dear friends, adding to the whimsical weaving of the web of beautiful connections coming together for me.


Over the five days we did two full Breathwave sessions a day, over an hour each, following a short and soft Breathwave meditation in the morning. The full sessions were in a medicine ceremony setting, with traditional or tribal music playing from a speaker, and some live music. Robin and his co-facilitator Matt occasionally provided bodywork to help guide the breath where it needs to go. In-between sessions there were integration sharings, educational discussions, movement practices, meals and socializing.


My first Breathwave session of the retreat was blissful. I felt full body tingles, punctuated by waves of sensation as my breath moved up and down my body. I cried, the first of many, completely overcome by the ecstatic beauty I witnessed within myself.


After the session we circled up and had the option of sharing our experiences. There were stories of both bliss and pain. The stories of bliss were celebrated, and stories of pain held in softness. Over the course of the retreat the sharings deepened as people felt more seen, safe and vulnerable in the sacred container set up by Robin and Matt. During a sharing one male, his body shaking intensely with fear and anger, told the group that as a child he was a victim of sexual abuse, and instantly went into major panic. Robin stepped up and helped the man move through the paralyzing anger that flared up, with a mix of warrior and wizardry, eventually calming him down.


There are no words to describe watching Robin work. The way he sets up a safe ceremonial container, the way he moves through the space, holds space for others, the way he speaks and the words he uses, is awe inspiring.


This big moment in our retreat softened everyone's hearts and set off a cascade of sharing stories of past traumas, such as abuse and accidents. People described layers and layers of painful parts of themselves being peeled away, feeling lighter, closer to their real selves than ever. These stories were held by the group, including more less intense emotional releases of sadness and anger. The holding of the stories allowed for the pain and trauma associated with them to be transmuted by the whole group. The more stories and releases held, the softer the group became, the more every individual felt seen and loved.


This experience deepened the lesson in me of the power of community; while breathwork in itself is powerful, doing it with others and integrating together magnified the healing power of the work that brought us together. Breathwork taps into self, creating healing, while community taps into love and connection, creating transformation.


On day four I had a powerful session. The evening session started with a one-on-one dyad, deeply connecting with another participant, before diving into the breath accompanied by a visualization exercise practicing forgiveness for our parents and loved ones. It was dark and emotionally charged, but I came out the other side feeling pure love and joy like I never experienced before. I bawled for several minutes, and felt pain leaving my heart, felt my heart expand 10 times with all the love exploding out of it.


On the final day, day five, I had an equally powerful session, but very different. Several days earlier I made an offer to Robin to put on my music playlist for one of the sessions. He instantly welcomed the offer. I took the next several days to curate a playlist based off Robin's music. During the session, in the breath trance, I cried with joy hearing specific songs of aesthetic beauty, and songs that mean so much to me. I also cried for the surrender and trust Robin showed in me, that my fellow participants showed me, and above all that I showed in myself, to step up with such a bold offer, to curate music for the group. For years I have wanted to DJ, and this was an affirmation that I have what it takes.


By the end of the final day, I was tired and completely mushy in my body from five days of breathing and deep work, crying lots, but feeling light, present and full of love and gratitude for this once-in-a-lifetime experience shared with my new soul family. Indeed, our group became like family, through five cathartic days of shared experience. Many participants expressed how everyone here knew them better than most of their own family and friends, as well as profound feelings of safety and love for everyone.


The Path of the Breath


I am feeling called to the path of Breathwave.


I was drawn to it due to its gentle nature, and was affirmed once I experienced it, as well as what I learned about it from Robin. I love how it aligns with the Taoist philosophy wu-wei, the art of non-doing. Controlling or forcing the breath is a very western, Yang approach to attaining higher consciousness. In Breathwave, one must learn to trust in oneself and let go for it to be truly effective. Trusting in oneself means getting out of one's way, in order to let the breath unfold naturally - a Yin approach. However, there must still be some engagement, some Yang, otherwise nothing will happen. It is all about the balance of the Yin & Yang.


The gentle nature of it also allows one to see where the breath may be stuck in the body, which informs where pain and trauma may be held, and thus, negative behavioral patterns. Robin was pretty spot on assessing our breathing and how it related to our personality and personal history, often using the Chakra system as a reference. Robin or Matt doing bodywork on that area, or encouraging us to make sounds helped release such blockages, freeing the stuck emotions and allowing the breath to flow freer.


For a number of years I was on the path of plant and synthetic medicines for therapy. I have done a lot of healing with psychedelics. I have had a number of peak experiences on them, overcome by complete beauty and ecstasy, resulting in intense bawling for several minutes. Breathwork feels a bit like a graduation from plant medicines. That's not to say that I will no longer take plant medicines, or that they cannot complement breathwork. However, Breathwave helped me attain a new level of empowerment knowing that I can attain similar non-ordinary states of consciousness without external inputs.


You Have Everything You Need


All I need is what I've always had in me - my breath.


And that goes for you too. All you need, you've always had in you. You just need to activate it. And if you have any anxiety around using plant medicines, then this is the safest and most accessible path to reaching non-ordinary states of consciousness to experience ecstasy, or to move pain and trauma.


Life is ineffable... words cannot describe five transformational days. The healing, empowerment, love and community.


But I hope I provided a happy balance of both my personal story as well as theory of Breathwave and breathwork. I will publish Part 2 about my integration, one week after the retreat.


"Inspiration" is latin for the act of breathing. Our very existence is breathing. Our very existence is inspiring. We live for each other; we breath for each other... We are inspiring beings, here to inspire each other.


Link to Breathwave:

www.breathwave.net


We did this 20-min guided meditation recording by Robin everyday in the week leading up to the retreat. I encourage you to try it for yourself and get a flavour of my Breathwave retreat:

https://soundcloud.com/robin-clements/unity-breathwave

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